What is this thing happening to me? I can't even concentrate. This emotion running through my head. I can't even-- 



Confusion is killing me badly. Someone hit me, please? Hihi (but not too hard). I can't express it in words. Well, to be honest, I can't right now. Why do these people keeps on bugging my peaceful thoughts? I want to scream at the top of my lungs. Like, seriously!!!


Pardon me for having this rant post. I just can't contain it at all.

That roller coaster feeling..
One moment you're happy, and in a second, you're devastated.
That feeling of excitement because of a certain thing then in a while you're depressed just because of an answer. 


Why am I not surprise after all? 
It's because I'm used to it. Anyways, I will not bother to think about that. AGAIN.


A/N
I supposed to write this down last Saturday but then, I don't have much time to open my computer so there..

Since I can't take my power nap at this moment, lemme just write.
The feeling that you're talking but you know that no one is listening yet they know what's on your mind is a relief already. Your opening up to someone you don't see face to face. 


I wanted to close my eyes and travel in my dream 'cause I don't want to think of anything that keeps on disturbing me. Sleep, for me, is the only way I can escape the reality. I can dream and think of the impossible things that can't happen. And for a while, I will free from those sadness lingering deep down my thoughts. Yes, inside me. Sadly.

Hello again.
I'm having this familiar feeling right now, so I decided not to let this slip away and write it down.
I dunno but there is something in me that wanted to speak up. I know it's weird, but i don't care. I want to write, that's all.


Earlier, I tweeted, "Remember, if your heart is not right, God will take that from you." A sentence that suddenly puffed into my mind and I saw my fingers typing it down (I sound crazy, right?), but anyways, here it goes..


Sometimes, I'm doing things because I have reasons for it, may it be something or someone. Until there would be a certain time that God will make me realize that I'm doing the task not because of Him but because of others. God said in Exodus 20:4-5, "I am a jealous God". He is jealous when someone gives to another something that rightly belongs to Him.


God just want a heart that is right, a heart that is in-tune for Him. So right now, i have to scratch those "unwanted" things in my mind and focus to what I should be doing.

Mahirap maisa-titik ang mga bagay na bihira o minsanan mo lamang maramdaman at maranasan. Ni wala ka ngang maibulalas maging sa iyong sarili at ang iyong utak ay nagugulumihanan sa mga bagay at maging sa sitwasyong walang anyo gaya ng hangin, nararamdaman ngunit 'di nakikita ng iyong mga mata.


Nangungulila ako sa mga iilang taong kadalasan kong nakakadaupang-palad 'pag dating sa mga ganitong konsepto ng usapan; Ang pagsasalarawan ng aming mga damdamin.


Ang mga ganitong sandali ng aming pag-uusap ang minsan nagdudulot sa'king sarili na magsiyasat sa mga bagay-bagay na ni-minsa'y 'di sumagi sa aking isip. Sila ang mga taong nakakaunawa ng mga salitang hindi ko maipahayag sa iba. Konserbatibo man o liberal, bukas ang aming mga isipan na tanggapin ang opinyon ng bawat isa hanggang sa mauwi sa tawanan at imahinasyon. 


Nais kong magkaroon muli ng ganitong momento ang bawat isa sa'min sa gitna ng sagad-sagarang trabaho.